Today marks the end my daughter’s first full week of kindergarten. I homeschooled her for preschool, so sending her off for a whole day at public school is taking some getting used to. Her 2-year-old brother isn’t happy about the arrangement, but thankfully there is a big yellow bus involved, so at lease he has something exciting to look forward to seeing every morning and evening.
Having my oldest start school has sent me on a path of varied emotions. I am happy that my daughter is excited about school, sad she isn’t such a little girl anymore, worried about the influence public school will have on her faith and excited about the opportunity to spend more one-on-one time with my son. But another emotion I didn’t expect to have crept up on me this week too: self-pity. Yep, my daughter is starting school and I’ve been feeling sorry for myself. I’ve been overwhelmed with the thought that we have an almost-six-year-old and we still aren’t ranching. And that my kids’ childhoods are passing by and they aren’t spending the years taking care of baby calves, helping haul hay in tractors and riding horses. My 20’s are nearly gone and we seem further away from the dream of ranching than when we had my daughter back in 2005. This week as I was having myself of big old pity party of regret, God reminded me of my family’s weekly memory verse:
“Commit to the Lord whatever you do and your plans will succeed,” ~ Proverbs 16:3
I chose that memory verse to remind myself and my daughter that she is committed to the Lord and that she needs to commit her school life to the Lord if she wants to succeed. I need to remember to commit my plans to the Lord and trust him. If this ranching thing is gonna work out for us, it has to be through Him!
What do you need to commit to the Lord today?