My two sweet kids started school today and I’ll admit that I was a little bummed out – but not for the reason you might expect.
Sure, I was a little sad that my kids are growing up so fast (what mom isn’t!) but what I was really disappointed about was the fact that my kids are starting school and I’m not.
About 5 years ago, after my sister unexpectedly got laid off from her job. To make a long story short, she ended up starting an alternative teaching program called iteachTEXAS. She got hired at a local school district and has been teaching ever since.
When we moved to Texas in the spring of 2014 I enrolled in the iteachTEXAS program. I was excited about my sister’s success and the opportunity to get a job that would work well with my kids’ schedule. I thought that maybe this was one of the reasons that God had us move to Texas! A teaching job would be a great financial help and a way for me to work but still be with my kids much of the time. When we lived in Kansas I had looked into getting my teaching license (I really wish I would have gotten it in college!) but it would have taken me 2 more years of college to get it – something that I wasn’t prepared to pay for.
Apparently though, getting a teaching job in the panhandle of Texas is not like getting a job in the populated North Central part of the state. I applied for dozens of teaching positions last year, but didn’t get one. The school district recommended that I sub for year, and I did.
I thought for sure that I would get a job this year …. but no again.
Through this (and many other job “no’s” that I’ve gotten in 2015) I’ve been reminded that this whole trusting God thing is hard. I want to have my life planned out, but that’s not what living in faith looks like. Often my plan isn’t God’s plan.
Living in faith is praying, reading the Bible, seeking God, doing your best and believing that He has a great plan for your life.
I don’t know what’s next for me (maybe I will get that writing job I’ve always wanted instead) but I know for certain (even if I have to remind myself often) that I can trust God.
“My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord.
“And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine.
For just as the heavens are higher than the earth,
so my ways are higher than your ways
and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.”
Isaiah 55:8-9 (NLT)
So today, as I drop my kids off at school and head back home I’m choosing to look forward to what’s ahead.